Tuesday, I wrote in my post, Three Ways I Fake It With Jesus, that I think about praying more than I pray.
I have this journal where I keep all my prayer requests. I’ll spend a good deal of time writing my list out, like a Christmas wish list, without bothering to put the book down and actually spend time in the company of Jesus handing all this stuff over to his power and ability to do something in the world.
I think that our worrying about not praying is prayer.
Our crying out.
Our balling up our fists.
It’s all prayer.
Jesus hears our deepest longings, those that empty out of our guts with a scream
and those that fall from our eyes one at a time.
Thinking about praying is praying.
Sure, you might not get an A on the prayer test,
but there isn’t a prayer test.
You can’t flunk it.
Every thought about prayer is extra credit.
If prayer is simply a conversation with God, however we’d have a conversation with anyone counts. You wouldn’t tell someone you needed to talk about a couple of things and then pretend you never talked to them, would you? I mean just because you have to talk again about a short list doesn’t mean you weren’t having a conversation the first time, right. So writing a prayer list is no different. It’s prayer about praying.
I think that most prayer makes you look crazy.
So, if you feel crazy praying, don’t worry…you’re probably not doing it wrong.
Besides, maybe if more of us didn’t pray right, we’d stop feeling like we were doing it wrong.